2022 SUCKED

That's it.  2022 sucked.  In the future, I will not look back on this year fondly.  Too many bad things happened.  We still have over a month left of 2022, and I can't see enough good happening in that time to offset all of the bad shit of 2022.

The one that affects me most is being put on leave/furlough in May.  I am still on leave.  I have looked at other jobs, but there's nothing out there that's worth leaving this job.  This job I have now (or what's left of it) is the best I've ever had in terms of work I can handle and pay.  If I leave for some retail job, I know I'll regret it.  

Therefore, my bank account has taken a hit, as I'm not getting paid as much as I used to.  I have focused on limiting my spending, but it's been tough.  This is going to set my girlfriend and me back at least a year in terms of us wanting to buy a place of our own.  

I also lost a cousin this year.  I wasn't particularly close to him, but he was still young, and the few times I had met him, I always thought he was someone I could look up to.  I went to his celebration of life, and it broke my heart to see my Aunt, Uncle, and other cousin (his sister) so torn apart by his passing.  

But what really put a capper on this year was the news I got last week.  Seeing as this is my 2nd blog and seeing as I don't share any personal information, I thought it'd be safe to share it here.  Anyway, my best friend got arrested earlier this month.  I'm not going to say what for, but I know I'm not going to see him again for a long time, if ever.  He was the one that I supported for 3 years, covering his rent and bills.  Now I know that I'll never get fully paid back.  But more importantly, I worry about him.  Even if he owes me money, I'd rather him be safe, healthy, and free than have that money back.  I essentially lost a friend, as I cannot see or hang out with him anymore.  

I haven't even mentioned all of the celebrities that have died this year.  It always seems like such a high amount.  Olivia Newton-John, Jason David Frank, Aaron Carter, Robbie Coltrane, and Coolio, to name a few.  All of those had an impact on my childhood.  And we can't forget the majesty Queen Elizabeth II.  Too many left us too soon.

It's funny, 2020 was a good year for me (not for most in the world, but it was for me).  I got out of a bad living situation, found a cool new apartment, and got a great job.  The following year, 2021, wasn't as great, but it still was a solid year.  I bought a new car, for one thing.  Nothing bad happened like has happened this year.

I have to try to focus on the positives of 2022.  I flew to Florida and was on the east coast for the first time in my life.  I got to go to Universal Studios, Florida, and Tampa.  I got to see the Mariners end their playoff drought and win a playoff series!  That was something I was starting to worry would never happen.  

2023 is less than six weeks away at this point.  I have a few goals.  One: Get back to work full-time or find a new job that can support my girlfriend and me.  Two: Lose weight.  Year after year, I fail to do so.  I need to.  And three: Enjoy life more fully.  Go to Mariner games, a Seahawk game, and maybe a concert.  Maybe travel again?  I want to have 2022 be a distant memory.  Let's hope that happens; I'll certainly do my best to make it so. 

Well, the year still isn't over and another bad thing happened.  Perhaps I spoke too soon.  I got a call from my parents, telling me my sister was in a car accident with her boyfriend.  My sister was driving her car, and her car was totaled.  She suffered minor injuries and was the only vehicle involved as she crashed into a concrete wall.  Still, I feel awful for her.  I want nothing more than to re-do this year.  I'd gladly give away all of the good things in exchange for none of the bad happening.  But, that's life.  You take the good with the bad.  But I don't think I could handle anything else bad happening this year, or even for the foreseeable future.