Top 10 Hottest TV Women

I've been thinking of the hottest women I've seen in TV shows (No reality TV shows, so no Survivor).  Sometimes actresses are cast, and they are at their peak physically, and I sure am thankful.  I wanted to highlight my top 10 hottest actresses I've seen on TV shows.  Keep in mind that I will be sticking to TV shows I've seen  Also, a few actresses on here may have been under 18 when they first started on their respective shows, but I will only be considering the seasons they were 18+ on.  And I'll consider guest stars as well as the main cast.  I might do one for movies at some point as well.  

10. Maggie Grace as Shannon Rutherford - LOST
I've never really had a huge crush on Maggie Grace, but I can certainly tell she's gorgeous and has a great body.  She was definitely at her peak on LOST.  She looked amazing in swimsuits on the show.  And lucky Naveen Andrews and Ian Somerhalder got to make out with her.  Yes, even the guy that played her step-brother.  

9. Christa Miller as Kate O'Brien - The Drew Carey Show
It never really made sense why such a beautiful woman in Kate hung out with Drew, Oswald, and Lewis.  And even further, why she dated Drew.  Christa was absolutely gorgeous as Kate, and she made Kate appear to be the complete package.  Unfortunately, Christa's plastic surgery/botox has made her age not so well, but we still have the Drew Carey Show to look back on fondly.

8. Melanie Lynskey as Rose - Two and a Half Men
If you can put the creepy stalker vibes aside, Rose is smoking hot.  She often shows off her cleavage and I often wonder why Charlie (and later, Alan) turns her down.  She exudes sex and has an amazing figure.  She's the kind of chick you weigh the pros and cons of sleeping with, and eventually, the pros win out. 

7. Emma Kenney as Debbie Gallagher - Shameless
You know it's a shame (pun 100% intended) that Debbie didn't have anything close to a nude scene after she and the actress turned 18.  Her character ends up losing a few toes, but I could get over that.  She's just got such a great figure that I can't help but ogle over.  AFTER she's 18, of course.

6. Sherilyn Fenn as Audrey Horne - Twin Peaks
Yep, a show from over 30 years ago.  Sherilyn Fenn is incredibly hot in Twin Peaks.  And that scene where she propositions Dale Cooper with nothing but a sheet covering her... wow.  If I was Dale Cooper I would've broken all of my oaths.

5. Francia Raisa as Valentina - How I Met Your Father
I remember seeing Francia first on "The Secret Life of the American Teenager".  She was gorgeous.  She still is.  In fact, maybe even more so.  Hilary Duff is not bad-looking by any means, but Francia steals the spotlight when they're on screen together.  

4. Ariel Winter as Alex Dunphy - Modern Family
This is obviously after Ariel/Alex is 18.  Anyway, she pulls off the hot nerd so darn well.  She, unfortunately, went too far with her looks (i.e. using too much makeup, perhaps getting surgery), but for the first few seasons after she turns 18, she's phenomenal.  

3. Katelyn Nacon as Enid - The Walking Dead
I developed a huge crush on Enid as my friends can attest.  I definitely wanted a love/makeout scene, and I instantly got jealous of Carl and Aiden when they got to be attached to her.  Of course, it was such a shame when she was killed off, but fortunately, they already had another cute brunette on hand in Lydia.  But Enid will always be my favorite.

2. Hayden Panettiere as Claire Bennet - Heroes
Now she was playing a mid-teen on Heroes, but she and I are the same age, and she turned 18 during season two, which is when I'm considering this, anyway.  Hayden had such a petite killer body (she still does).  I fell in love with her, and she was a huge reason I kept watching Heroes, despite its quality going downhill.

1. Erica Durance as Lois Lane - Smallville
The funny thing is that I never thought much of Erica Durance before I watched Smallville.  But after watching it, holy shit.  She is an absolute babe in every sense of the word.  She exudes sex.  Her performance really helps make her desirable.  Before watching Smallville, I didn't know she had quite the body/rack.  And she pulls off that sly smile/smirk so effortlessly and flawlessly.  I would refuse to fast forward through the intro just to catch that shot of her emerging from the water in a bikini.

Going over my options

 I am writing this more for myself than anyone, but that's true of many of these if I'm honest.  As previously mentioned, I'm on furlough with my employer.  In fact, it was one year ago today that my boss put me on furlough.  He said it would be for 60-90 days, but here I still am on furlough.  My savings has, not surprisingly, taken a hit, but there's only so long I can do this.  So what are my options?  I'll bullet-point them below.

- Keep doing what I'm doing and hope to be brought back full time
Bad thing is, I've tried this.  I've tried to be the best employee, taking on as many files as my boss will allow me.  Another bad thing being I simply cannot do this much longer.  Also, if I'm not brought back by this summer, it's not happening this year (since winters are very slow), so I'd definitely need to move on.  I've done some small side hustles such as selling some of my things on Mercari and doing surveys on YouGov, but those don't pay that much.  

- Work a part-time job/side hustle, and still do files for my boss
I've strongly considered this option.  Unfortunately, my anxiety prevents me from doing a lot of jobs, but I do feel like I could do some side hustles, such as Instacart.  However, there is a waiting list to sign up to be one of their shoppers.  I have put myself on the waiting list to start.  I could also work part-time at, say a grocery store (I have experience there), but last time I applied to work at a grocery store part-time I ended up working there ten years.  

- Find a new full-time job
The bad thing about this is that it's easier said than done.  Jobs that I'm comfortable doing and I'm qualified to do are few and far between.  It would be nice to get a new start and not have to work about working on loan files anymore.  I have looked, but the pickings have been slim.  I'm not picky on pay.  I'd rather work a low-paying job I'm comfortable with than a higher-paying job that stresses me out.

- Do a side hustle full time
People do this.  Could I?  I think so.  I've seen a Door Dasher on Tiktok "Bike Dasher", who rides his bike to deliver Door Dash orders.  I think I could possibly do that with a scooter, or if I must, my own car.  I'd have to rent out a garage with my apartment complex to store the scooter.  But I'd have to be ultra-committed.  Also, would my parents approve?  Unlikely.  So this is a longshot.

Those are all the options I can think of.  I just want to fast-forward to when I'm making a decent income again, regardless of which option I choose.  I hate the process of applying for jobs, interviewing, and waiting to hear back.  But if, in the end, I need to grin it and bear it, I will do that.


UPDATE: Well, I've decided to go with option 2, which is work a part-time job and still do files for my boss.  I got an interview next week for a part-time job which I'm hopeful I'll get.  If not, I'm going to keep applying to part-time positions until I get one.  I'm confident I can handle doing both, and I know my current boss will be okay with me doing this.  Honestly, I bet he's surprised I haven't done something like this sooner.  Hopefully I'll update with good news later!

UPDATE 2: Option 2 didn't work out (they never called for the phone interview).  However, I decided to work part-time at Amazon, and I have already gone through my new hire orientation and my first day is next Monday!  I'm hoping this time at Amazon will stick, and I think it well.  But mostly, I hope this and doing files for my boss will be enough income to get by.  Time will tell.

Living with Anxiety Sucks

I hate it.  It cripples me.  It suffocates me.  It controls my life.  It controls my actions and decisions, and I cannot live a free or exciting life.  People expect me to have a more social life, go out more, and do things that "normal" people do, but anxiety prevents me.  The mere thought sometimes frightens me to my core.  

I can do certain things.  I can go places with my girlfriend, who, let's face it, is a godsend.  She doesn't suffer from anxiety like I do, thank God (or at least, nowhere near the extent I do).  She is willing to put up with mine, and for that, I am forever grateful.  She's a bit of a homebody (she likes to stay home on most occasions).  But if you were to ask me to go to any of these places with a stranger or by myself, I couldn't do it.  I've managed to go to the movies alone, but that's pushing it for me.  I try to pick a seat without anyone occupying any of my neighboring seats, but someone always seems to take one of them, causing my anxiety to be fairly high throughout the duration of the film.  Also, I certainly couldn't push myself to go to a sporting event alone.

I get anxiety (to an extent) from my mom, who also suffers from it.  I am a lot like her because I also dislike large crowds and prefer to stay home almost as often as possible.  My dad, much like my girlfriend with me, has been incredible in putting up with it.  My dad is perhaps the bigger hero as he is a very social person, someone who (for the most part) enjoys crowds and groups of people.  Yet, he has foregone many social events (or left early) for my mother.  I hope he does not resent her for this (and honestly, I doubt he does).  

People without anxiety, like my dad and sister, need to understand that people with anxiety, like myself and my mom, can still enjoy life without going out to social gatherings all the time or traveling or anything of that nature.  My sister has often been disappointed in me when I've said I'm not keen on doing something of a social nature.  Perhaps I'll need to have a serious conversation with her someday.  I'm not 100% sure she's aware of the level of anxiety I suffer from.  She may be under the belief that my anxiety is muted compared to our mother's, which it is not.  

As I said, I can still enjoy life and have fun.  I do enjoy the occasional social gathering so long as I'm with at least one person who can be my "rock" (normally my girlfriend).  I honestly don't know what I'd do without her.  Be a hermit, I guess.  I enjoy life at home, watching sports, television, and movies with my girlfriend.  We go out to eat fairly often as well.  We hang out with my sister and her boyfriend every so often.  

But unfortunately, it also has affected my career.  I worked in retail for a decade, and I was able to after getting used to it.  But I have been either unemployed or on sabbatical three times in the last four years.  And when it comes to getting a new job, it's extremely difficult for me.  First off, job searching in itself is anxiety-inducing.  Secondly, I have to be picky with what jobs I apply to, as most jobs out there (including the ones I'm qualified for) would likely cause me to have a panic attack.   

I hope someday to be able to manage my anxiety levels better.  I should probably go see a doctor or a therapist.  But generally, you don't see one of those until an attack causes a big incident.  And right now, it feels like I'm just a ticking time bomb.